"I understood all the words. They were new and made sense. That's why the past was the past. That's why, if everything changes and wears out, then loves also fade away. You should know I'll look for your heart if you take it somewhere else. I'll look for your soul in the cold, in the flame. I 'll cast a spell on you, so that you love me still. You shouldn't have started, attracted me, touched me. I shouldn't have given so much, I don't know how to play. People tell me that today that's how other women do things. But I'm not any other women. Before we get too close, before we throw it away, You should know I'll look for your heart if you take it somewhere else. I'll look for your soul in the cold, in the flame. I'll cast a spell on you, so that you love me still. I'll find other languages to sing your praises. I'll pack our bags for the fields of eternal harvests. I'll say those magic words spoken by African healers. I'll say them with no regrets, so that you love me still. I'll make myself a queen so that you don't leave me. I'll make myself new so the fire starts again. I'll become like those other women who make you happy. Your games will be our games, if that's what you desire. I'll make myself brighter, more beautiful, to rekindle the spark. I'll turn myself to gold, so that you love me still."

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Abandonned











It’s funny how everything looks blurry when a relationship is ending. If I can call what we had a relationship that is. I trusted you. I trusted you with all my heart. I had doubts of course, and when I told you about them, you just convinced me that I was silly, that you loved me, that you cared. And I believed you! I so wanted to believe you. You can brag, you know! You’ve got me around your finger and you played me like a pro. Now I’m left with only sorrow and a whole in my heart. Where you were having fun, I was deadly serious. I wasn’t at the beginning though. I didn’t want to. But again, you convinced me that you were sincere. In fact, you convinced me to believe and do things I never thought I was capable of. Did you enjoy making a fool out of me? Did it thrill you? 

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